That's a good question and I experienced something similar this year. I've had a bout with depression coupled with having had open heart surgery in the fall and missed out on last years fall riding season. Both of those things contributed to a much more than usual sedentary winter. I rode my trainer some but not what I should have. Consequently I lost a lot of fitness and added lots of pounds. That depressed me even more. I had to kick myself in the butt to get out the door. I was so angry at having lost so much hard gained ground that I was taking it out on myself. All I can say is that pushing myself has had its reward. My fitness level is improving by leaps and bounds and slowly the pounds are coming off. Yes, I'm angry that I caused all this myself, but the upside is that I am back in control, I forgave myself and told myself that this is a lesson to be learned and that time will pass whether I choose to work on fitness or not. By continuing to work on fitness and regaining lost ground I will be in a better place three months down the road than if I had chosen not to.

In the mean time, I've fallen in love all over again with my bike. It's become my friend and helper again and not my enemy.

Sometimes we just have to push through stuff.