I totally understand Limewave. I tell everyone that the way I've dealt with my nephew being killed is to 'take to my bed with chocolate', said like I'm joking but in reality, that is exactly what I did. I told my sister that I can hear him somewhere just laughing and saying - don't you go blaming your bad behavior on me. In reality I'm kind of thinking I may need to go find someone to talk to about all the things I'm dealing with, or not dealing with as it were. Just filed my taxes and for someone that usually files on Feb 1, that's a bit of a bad sign.

Today I packed my lunch for work for the first time since December. I wanted to shout it through the halls. Baby steps I guess.

Never-ending rollercoaster indeed.