I realize BMI index is so flawed but now I'm officially fat. I just checked several sites and woman my age, I may be only 36th percentile (64% of the women in my age weigh more than me) I'm still fat.

I hate diet plans. Never bought into fenn-fenn, as I hate pills. Never bought into forgoing some food groups, I think those are bad like Atkins diet. And in college days and in my twenties, I spent lot of times with the guys where it was see-it-eat-it diet was the norm. And my parents "Eat your peas, there are kids starving in Africa" so I learned to clean off my plate.

I really hate being this overweight. I want to be back down at 125 pound when I felt my strongest. I'm 5'4". Is 125 pound realistic for my height and my age?

I hate gaining weight every year. It's slow but after many years, it does add up. My mother was never this heavy. My father was never fat. And my sister still run marathon so now I'm the fattie in my family and I hate it.

So how do you manage to keep yourself motivated on a diet? I love food. Foodie of sort but I don't really have a sweet tooth except for chocolate. What are some of the sensible diet? Besides yes calories in calories out. Portion control just leaves me craving for more and I end up binging on a regular basis... How does one maintain self-control when you feel hungry. Carrot/celery sticks will NOT do.

Being fat makes me feel like I'm out of control without discipline. I think that's the part I hate the most. No self-discipline. HAND OVER THAT CHOCOLATE AND NOBODY GETS HURT!!!

hate even asking for comments on something so mundane but being fat really makes me gaawwwgggg.