I know I PMed you..but I didn't read this first

The doctor definitely can't *make* you take any medication. But, he/she may be able to give you some more information about options, which will most likely include medication. I am curious though---it sounds like it is really difficult for you to talk to a therapist about what is going on...I am wondering what makes going to a doctor to talk about it easier (especially since you don't seem to want what he/she probably has to give ((i.e. medicine)). Does it feel safer because doc may not want you to dive into the emotional aspect of this?

And, I know you don't know me...but...oh lord.... I have all kinds of life-difficulties

I really truly believe that although a lot of people don't talk about them, everyone is struggling with certain things and suffering in some areas. I just think that is humanity. We are imperfect, raw human beings. Our imperfection is beautiful...and often painful. Isolation can be especially compounding in this area when people aren't talking about the reality of our lives that includes our stresses and struggles. ((This makes me think of postsecret.com you ladies should check it out if you haven't! ---people coming together in their rawness and humanity)).

Really, I just want to validate your feelings, but also try to normalize the fact that a lot of people struggle with sleep problems and all kinds of other problems. It is so easy to believe that everyone else has everything together and is super happy (especially based on the happy-ever-after story lines all over the media). But, I think everyone is a little messy. And, its in that messyness that ultimately I think we find each other in the most intimate ways.

I once heard a parable....that if you imagine all of the people on earth as wells (like the water kind)....the deepness in the well represents the deepness of the person's innermost thoughts (i.e. all of our most secret feelings are the deepest in the well, while the top by the grass is our "surface selves". And, interestingly...the place where wells come together...and share their water (the deep feelings water) is deep deep deep deep down . Just like people

I gotta run...but smiles all around