Happy Birthday Beth,

But do you feel 50? If you are like me, then definitly not. save the black baloon till when you feel 50

maybe when you do have a party, it will be very loud, hopefully not overboard. Anyway, ...

Enjoy each day of your life and cherish those whom you love and care. This is the best gift to yourself.

You can always throw a party for yourself by inviting friends over for backyard cookout. Throw a spread on a picnic table covered in newspaper, ... Steamed shrimp, Corn on the cob, blue crab, red potato... Shrimp/crab boil. Throw in some artichoke as well. Have your guest bring the desert, beer, wine... And I'm sure one of the men would be more than happy to take over the "boil" and you can just enjoy your frinds over.