... and since I can't blog about it at work, I thought this would be the perfect outlet so I can transfer it later. Thanks for reading, listening, and allowing me to vent...

I have an eating disorder (bingeing) that stemmed from an addiction transfer from alcohol in my late teens and early 20s.

Once I had kicked the alcohol issues, food decided to take a stand. As a person of Irish decent, I suppose I am predisposed to enjoy cocktails. I have always been a partygirl. And despite telling myself- no don’t be a partygirl, it is just a part of me.

That said, I successfully went through the majority of my life induldging too much, paying the price and then repenting. But I found that the more my overall health and alcohol issues were under control, the more I thought about having that piece of cake (or entire cake). I constantly made dates to meet friends for brunch, hot dogs during the game, countless appetizers for happy hour and of course my personal fave- pizza. Something that smacks of celebration, so having it seemed mandatory as much as possible. Sound familiar? All of the activities I loved when I was drinking too much, I still loved, but substituted alcohol with food!

I am not proud of this, but I am open about it b/c I feel it is a very real issue. If you have an addiction you have to work very hard to solve the root problem and in the future if addiction transfer becomes an issue you have to work really hard to find the root again. Right now I am working on that. I am much better off than ever before in my life. But I still put others before myself and that is not always the best for my health and safety.

I am worth it.