My mom's dear friend died this weekend and I am very sad. She was definitely more my mother's friend than mine but she was a friend of the family. I had known her for at least 13 years. She had some sort of auto-immune disease and it was known it would eventually win but you are never ready.

I am struggling today with the overwhelming sadness I feel at work and the feeling I shouldn't be this sad. She was my mom's friend but it wasn't like she ever called me to shoot the breeze. I almost feel like I shouldn't be so depressed but I am so sad I want to take the afternoon off so I can go home and be sad in peace. I want to giggle at the crazy memories of her and be thankful she left them with me. I don't want to be sitting in my cubicle wishing I would stop having to fight back tears.