Sending really good thoughts your way...I went through this for years with my cervix. I understand what you are saying about this is only the beginning if it was up to them. There never seemed to be an end so by chance when I was seeing my accupuncturist she recommended a doc that was more conservative and we started the watch and wait. After a significant lifestyle change, the waiting was over. It didn't need surgery again.

I could never get a definite answer though: Yes it's cancer...no it's not. Almost cancer? Oh wait it is cancer. Did I say it was cancer? I just gave up.

Hope you can keep your head clear during this time