Quote Originally Posted by Veronica View Post
I feel sad. I felt sad before Tilda passed away, but now it's a bit worse. I think it's normal. It's not like I'm lying in my bed doing nothing. Although that is tempting. We finished the flooring in the office this weekend. It looks good. I know grieving takes time. I know this will pass. I have always disliked December.

I know working out will make me feel better. I don't have the desire to work out. But I know it will make me feel better. I put air in my trainer bike's tires last night, told Thom to make me get on the bike this morning and he did. Making me is him saying, "Hey, weren't you going to work out this morning?" It's more like a nudge.

I did the Ultra Core Full Body DVD. I'm still not using the gearing Coach Troy says. For most of the workout, I'm just keeping it a nice fast spin, cadence between 85 - 90. I varied it a little today to see how my knee would feel - two minutes with the cadence up over 105. That was fun. One minute in big ring and 12, let's hope I don't regret that later today. I've always hated lunges, so I don't mind fast forwarding through those.

Do I feel better? I guess.

V.
Hi V

Grieving sure does take it out of you............. recently my horse lost her first foal shortly after he was born, i bred this horse for a really good friend who was then killed by a drunk driver 3 weeks later......

I know that there will be as many down days as good days and i too fell off the cycle/excerise routine...... then I read in a mag that even when you don't feel like working out/cycling, put your shoes on and try it for 10 mins, if it really desn't feel good after 10 mins then stop and call it a day ( and there will be days like that) but if after 10 mins you still feel like going then aim for 30 and see how you feel after that......i've taken up this motto and so far have kept going :0 and now back excerise with enthusiasm


I stll have days where it all seems so wrong, and writing this has set me off, but things are getting better...