You ladies are awesome. Thanks for helping me think through this.

I've been trying to avoid twice a day workouts because I find it just wears me down, mostly mentally (I'm pretty good about throwing in easy weeks, but sometimes...). But I think I might just need to buck up and accept the fact that if I am committed to doing the 50k, then I will need to just do more with my time or give something up. I think already my running is suffering because I'm not focused on it. I really hate driving to work (or anywhere for that matter), so I am having a battle with myself about what is more important--running and other types of fitness or my loathing of feeling like I have to drive everywhere. These are all choices that I make, so I need to figure out the combination that will keep me mentally and physically healthy.

I love my DH, but he is not supportive of me doing anything endurance anymore, so I need to make sure that whatever I do doesn't rock that boat. Also, we have different opinions about what the house, yard, and dogs need, which means that in order for me to be satisfied with the house, yard, and dog situation, I have to do what I think needs to be done (can't expect him to do it). Again, choices I have made and continue to make.

So I think I'll continue to evaluate the circumstances and see if I can't get into some sort of comfortable pattern.

Thanks again for putting up with my blathering.