Yesterday I did a 10-miler. I felt pretty good until mile 8 when my back started to ache badly. For those who don't know, I've been in PT for my back for the last few weeks, I injured it in a bad mountain biking accident. PT said it is okay to run so long as the back pain doesn't increase. And it's been alright, really.

The thing is, I am just not motivated like I was last summer. I've been struggling with a minor relapse with my depression. Basically I don't have the motivation to do anything right now. I'm on the road to recovering again, but I think that I have too many expectations on myself right now. So, after talking to DH, I have decided it might be best to not worry about the marathon this year.

I am so relieved already. Now I can ride my bike when I want to and not worry about having to recover for a long run. I will run another marathon eventually, and I still have goals to keep me very active this summer--but it's nice to have one thing off of my plate.