And I'm thinking, "Wow, only 3 crashes on the mtn bike since August? She's doing really well!"

Suffice it to say that I crash most times I go mtn biking. To the point now where I won't ride alone and won't do anything really technical (by my definition). It really messes with your head, as you've described. There's some "line" in your brain that makes it all better once you step over it...only you can fall back behind it or have a hard time going from toes-over to whole-body-over. I hear ya girlfriend! I hope to get over my mtn biking fuzz by spring; for now I'm going to give it a rest (which I'm fine with)!

You've been there before and jumped over the line. So you know you can do it.

I have gone down twice on my commute bike since August. It's an old mtn bike with slicks on it. It doesn't ride like my road bike OR my mtn bike, which I've learned the hard way. For a while there I had to tell myself, out loud, that I couldn't take corners like I was on my road bike. Now that the weather's changed and I'm focused on running (and hopefully skiing very soon), I'm not commuting by bike either. Also giving that a rest. My head is most definitely not into riding at the moment.

You are not alone! We shall persevere and take over the planet! OK, maybe not take over the planet, but take charge of that little portion of our brain that messes with us.