I still want to do the half marathon in November, but I seem to be lacking the motivation to do it. I have gone up to 9miles so far, so I'm completely on schedule, but just can't convince myself to go out and do the runs right now. This happened a couple of months ago when I was wanting to do the full. I got to 9miles, then started making excuses, most of which were real.

Most of you know I am in medical school, so time is definately a factor here, and both times I have lost motivation is in the last weeks of a rotation, just before the shelf exam. It's not that I don't have the time to do the training, I just feel tired, guilty about studying, and don't want to do it. I'm getting enough sleep, still want to go out on my bike (part of the reason why I didn't run this weekend), so I just don't know what's going on.

Part of the problem, I think, is that I don't know if I'll actually be able to do the race (1/2 or if I had kept with it, the full). I'll be on a q4 call schedule (call every 4th night), and won't know until the week before if I'll be on call, or post call (ie, 50% chance of not being able to do it).

Sorry about this, I just had to get it off my chest. I'm just upset with myself anytime I give up on something, especially when it's something I find difficult, but know that if I work at it I can get through it.

Thanks for listening!