Had a decent 3.5 mile run yesterday at my usual pace. Unless and until my hamstring totally stops hurting, I'm not going to increase my mileage or pace. It is hurting less and less though, so I'm encourage. Unfortunately, today I feel like poo. We've been playing around with the dosage for my anti-thyroid medicine, and while in some ways I think I'm at a good spot with it, in some other ways, I'm not sure. My heart rate seems to be spiking rather easily today with any degree of movement. Resting, it's fine (55-60 bpm), but if I move, it quickly goes over 100.
I ended up having a meltdown this morning about it. I hate, hate, hate feeling like something other than myself. I wish I could test my relevant thyroid levels like a diabetic can check for blood sugar. Instead, I sort of have to wing it until I get blood drawn again, and there's a lag when you correct your dosage. As "luck" would have it, I actually am scheduled for blood work this week, so I'll see where my levels are.
Anyway, I just wanted to vent. Thanks for reading!
Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Continue to learn. Appreciate your friends. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.
--Mary Anne Radmacher