Goodbye to our little Ellie kitty

[BleeckerSt_Girl]

Well, our little Ellie died this evening, a couple of hours ago, peacefully at home in her big soft bed equipped with her favorite heating pad while I petted her.
I feel so sad, so many tears... even though she had such a wonderful LONG 20 year happy kitty life in a home full of love. Ellie was the world's best mouser in her day. Tiny but tough. Sweet, tidy, and affectionate.
This is a little hard to take since we lost our beloved 8 year old Lydia kitty just four weeks ago to kidney failure, and that was just heartbreaking. In four weeks we have gone from three kitties to one. They are so innocent and sweet and loving, like little children, that's what makes it so hard to bear.

Though I don't kid myself into thinking Ellie was 'comfortable' during her last few days (who is?), I can feel good that she seemed to not be in undue pain despite not being able to walk anymore for the past 48 hours, I actually had her purring even this morning while getting her head rubbed, and she was drinking a bit all the way until this afternoon, while I held a tiny bowl of cool water under her chin. She could still hold her head up and enjoyed getting her head rubbed gently- her favorite ritual.

I was hoping she would pass on peacefully today, and she did.
She was very quiet and sleepy today. DH and I were committed to go play music for our village's farmer's market this afternoon from 4-8pm, and when we got back Ellie was only breathing intermittently. I petted her for 15 minutes and she very quietly stopped breathing. I'm so grateful I was able to get home just in time, even though I think she was probably not conscious. She had as good a life as any cat could wish for, but we'll miss her very much.

Ellie a year ago at 19 yrs, still quite spry:


Yesterday, held in DH's lap while I changed her bedding:

and in her 'hospice bed' yesterday:


I don't even know why I'm posting these pictures, except that it somehow makes me feel a little better, like I am sharing and celebrating Ellie with others who understand. I'm glad she is at peace now.

I take comfort in knowing that once we recover a bit, we will look to open our home to a new shelter kitty, thus saving one desperate homeless kitty in Ellie's honor. I know Pearl the 'prima donna kitty' will object, but she'll just have to deal.

[Owlie]

I'm sorry.

[salsabike]

Aw, Bleecker. It's tough stuff, I know. I'm sorry. Especially two losses so close together. Glad you got to love them and they you.

[ilima]

RIP Sweet Ellie. I'm sorry for your family's loss Bleecker.

[solobiker]

I am so sorry for your loss. You gave her a great life.

[Biciclista]

what a wonderful and beloved kitty. Your photos show it, I'm glad you are sharing them with us.

[Zen]

Don't worry about Ellie. I doubt she was in pain at the end, just very,very tired.
She did have a good long life and will always be remembered.

[Miranda]

Oh, BSG, I'm so sorry for your loss. Couldn't help but sit here and cry reading your post.

Your baby had a wonderful loving home with you. Sure she knew it. Glad you got to be with her at the very end. It's like she almost waited for you to return home to say one final 'good-bye'.

Sorry if that sounds too dramatic for some. But, I think our fur family members understand more than we know.

It's been a year since I had to get my beautiful yellow lab put down. For the first time, I took our new black lab out to the old dog's favorite park this week. Even though it's been that long since the other dog's death, I just burst into tears with the memories. Pets are such a deep part of our lives.

(((hugs)))
Miranda

[oxysback]

Rest in peace, Ellie. Rest in peace.

[jesvetmed]

What a sweet posting, Bleeker. I'm so sorry for your loss. What a wonderful long life she had -- and I'm sure brought you lots of treasured memories.

[aka_kim]

Rest in peace, little Ellie. So sorry for your loss.

[ClockworkOrange]

I don't even know why I'm posting these pictures, except that it somehow makes me feel a little better, like I am sharing and celebrating Ellie with others who understand. I'm glad she is at peace now.

It is so painful when we lose a pet but I am pleased you posted the pics, now how many pets receive worldwide recognition? Your little Ellie could not have had a better life.

Hugs

Clock

[Grog]

Ellie had a good life. She will rest in peace, especially knowing that you will give a good home to a new cat soon.

RIP.

[smilingcat]

Yes like everyone else, Ellie had a wonderful home for 20 years. I am sorry for you loss in such short period of time. We are so helpless when the time comes yet we have no choice but to accept it. Accepting with grace and love is the best thing we can do for our little babies and to remember them. Thank you for sharing the wonderful picture of Ellie.

She had a queens bed so plush. When its my time, I wish I could go like that.

Sincerely,

[papaver]

Bleecker, you gave her a wonderful and very long life. I feel sorry for your loss.