Aw, Aggie. I'm sorry.
We hand our whole hearts over to our animals in a complete way we would never do with fellow humans. No defenses, no holding back, no protection. That's why it's so hard. But I would still do it, every time, anyway. I bet you would too.
"My predominant feeling is one of gratitude. I have loved and been loved;I have been given much and I have given something in return...Above all, I have been a sentient being, a thinking animal, on this beautiful planet, and that in itself has been an enormous privilege and an adventure." O. Sacks