Would you like to join my pity party?

[makbike]

All I can say is I'll be glad when this week is over and I can close the book on it. Since Sunday things have been bad and just seem to get worse with each passing day.

Sunday: My BF hurts my feelings and now won't talk to me.

Monday morning: On the way to work I spy an animal in the road flopping around and I immediately know it has been hit by a car. I pull over to help it. I discover a little yorkie and immediately know it is not going to make it. Gums are pale and heart rate is fading. I move the dog off the road and another man runs to the only house on this section of the road to inquire if this is their dog. A man emerges from the house and claims the dog. I explain the situation and advise him to get the dog to the closest clinic ASAP but also advise him the situation is grim. He is in tears and wants to know if I'm a vet. I explain I'm not but worked in a clinic as an assistant for nine years. Again I advise him to move quickly. At this point I know the dog has passed. What an awful way to start my day.

Monday night: BF still won't talk to me.

Tuesday: We are administering our state tests at school this week. I've given this exam for the past 17 years without any problems. I'm on the move around the classroom checking test booklets, making sure kids on the correct section, etc. I again check booklets when they finish (checking for stray marks, making sure they have completed the assigned sections, etc.). Kids return after lunch and I administer the third section. Again, I'm up and about checking booklets. A young man in class finishes and I check his booklet and notice he has not bubbled in any answers for the multiple choice questions that afternoon. I ask him why and he explains he bubbled in the other booklet (it contains only the questions and though they are allowed to write in this booklet it is not scored). I ask him to go back and transfer his answers for that afternoon and he informs me he did the same thing in the morning. They are not allowed to go back on previous sections so he will take zeros on all those questions. He is a strong student and would have scored well on this section of the exam. I feel awful! How could I miss that he did not bubble in any answers during the morning section? My boss was very nice about it but I also realize I've hurt the school's score for next year. I was sick to my stomach all day.

Tuesday evening: decide I should ride so I drive to Louisville to join in the club ride (25 miler). Skies are clear. Forecast indicates there are storms to the south but they should miss the Louisville area. Join the ride and feel great on my bike. Reach downtown and look to the south skies are black. I decide to keep riding reminding myself what the weatherman said. I fall into a paceline and we are zipping down River Road. We turn to climb the first big hill and hit a head wind. At this time the skies open up and well the rest is history.

BF still will not talk.

Wednesday: I don't even want to think about it. I'm almost afraid to get out of bed in the tomorrow morning. Gosh I hope it is a better day!

Thanks for listening and I hope your week has been better than mine.

[BleeckerSt_Girl]

Call BF and tell him you are miserable, you miss him, and can you both just start over again and maybe talk later on about what happened? Ask him how he is before you tell him how you are.

[mountainchick]

I hope your week gets better and you work things out with BF.

Can you treat yourself to something (pedicure, chocolate, new cycling gear) to help brighten the week?

[LBTC]

{{{{{{{{{{{{Marcie}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Your week will get better.

As a pet parent, I know that my gratitude for what you did for the yorkie and his owner is beyond words. Terribly difficult for you, and awful for him, but the ripple of your kindness and knowledge has helped him in ways you may never know.

Strange as it sounds, your strong student made the error, that you overlooked, for a reason. I can't explain it, but you can't tell just what it will lead to for him, for you, for your school, etc. Many wild scenarios come to mind, which don't bear typing....just please trust the universe.

Can I explain why you got rained on wickedly? No. Am I grateful it wasn't a tornado you rode through? Absolutely!

BF will warm up. Lisa has good thoughts for you. Maybe this week is more about you taking care of you (with the help of your mates on TE), than whatever BF has to offer right now.

Life is a strange roll of the dice, but the numbers always add up to something.

Sending you butterflies full of joy, acceptance, peace and wonder.

and hugs, too

~T~

[makbike]

Thanks for the hugs guys!

I've tried calling BF, he is screening his calls. I've tried sending emails they go unanswered. I simply must wait for him to contact me and I'm not very good at waiting.

I did treat myself to an hour massage last night and the knots have already returned to my neck and shoulders.

I know things will get better just as I know everything happens for a reason. I'm just a bit blue and this too shall pass (probably when the PMS trip comes to an end and the cramps pass!)

Time to curl up with my cats so they can purr me to sleep (also lacking this week).

[lauraelmore1033]

cats are a great consolation, aren't they? What an awful week! Hope things get better for you pronto!

[mimitabby]

gee, ((((Makbike)))) I'm having a hard week too but at least DH is talking to me!
I hope you have someone you can talk to about it.

I have been where you were with the Yorkie, with me it was a little orange tabby kitten. I got there just as it died too.

I'm glad you have your cats. Aren't they grand sometimes?

[Mr. Bloom]

While we're "pulling for you" in cyber-land, please take note of the next five GOOD things that happen and post them here for us. That way, we'll know this brief spell has passes.

[wannaduacentury]

All I can say is I'll be glad when this week is over and I can close the book on it. Since Sunday things have been bad and just seem to get worse with each passing day.

Sunday: My BF hurts my feelings and now won't talk to me.

Monday morning: On the way to work I spy an animal in the road flopping around and I immediately know it has been hit by a car. I pull over to help it. I discover a little yorkie and immediately know it is not going to make it. Gums are pale and heart rate is fading. I move the dog off the road and another man runs to the only house on this section of the road to inquire if this is their dog. A man emerges from the house and claims the dog. I explain the situation and advise him to get the dog to the closest clinic ASAP but also advise him the situation is grim. He is in tears and wants to know if I'm a vet. I explain I'm not but worked in a clinic as an assistant for nine years. Again I advise him to move quickly. At this point I know the dog has passed. What an awful way to start my day.

Monday night: BF still won't talk to me.

Tuesday: We are administering our state tests at school this week. I've given this exam for the past 17 years without any problems. I'm on the move around the classroom checking test booklets, making sure kids on the correct section, etc. I again check booklets when they finish (checking for stray marks, making sure they have completed the assigned sections, etc.). Kids return after lunch and I administer the third section. Again, I'm up and about checking booklets. A young man in class finishes and I check his booklet and notice he has not bubbled in any answers for the multiple choice questions that afternoon. I ask him why and he explains he bubbled in the other booklet (it contains only the questions and though they are allowed to write in this booklet it is not scored). I ask him to go back and transfer his answers for that afternoon and he informs me he did the same thing in the morning. They are not allowed to go back on previous sections so he will take zeros on all those questions. He is a strong student and would have scored well on this section of the exam. I feel awful! How could I miss that he did not bubble in any answers during the morning section? My boss was very nice about it but I also realize I've hurt the school's score for next year. I was sick to my stomach all day.

Tuesday evening: decide I should ride so I drive to Louisville to join in the club ride (25 miler). Skies are clear. Forecast indicates there are storms to the south but they should miss the Louisville area. Join the ride and feel great on my bike. Reach downtown and look to the south skies are black. I decide to keep riding reminding myself what the weatherman said. I fall into a paceline and we are zipping down River Road. We turn to climb the first big hill and hit a head wind. At this time the skies open up and well the rest is history.

BF still will not talk.

Wednesday: I don't even want to think about it. I'm almost afraid to get out of bed in the tomorrow morning. Gosh I hope it is a better day!

Thanks for listening and I hope your week has been better than mine.

{{{{HUGS}}}} to you. I hope things look better soon. Jenn