Working on acceptance - now is the hard part!

[LBTC]

Hi, support group!

All winter I knew this would come, but the hard part is really hard.

Tonight DH went for a hard MTB ride with a friend. I managed to walk the dogs around the block, and I'm hurting again/still.

Tomorrow DH and friends are going out of town to ride hard again. I'll stay home. Maybe do a short road ride. And I mean short. 30-40 minutes tops. If I feel up to it. I might get to go somewhere to take pictures. That will have to feed my soul, but I still don't know what will feed my body!

Yesterday was horrible, today was markedly better, but still pretty awful. And I don't know what the trigger was. Good chance it was the RMT / cranio-sacral, maybe too much all at once. Or maybe it was the slice of pizza! Or did I push it too hard with the BBQ sauce that had a bit of sugar in it? Or maybe I did that core exercise too many times - the one she said I couldn't overdo. Have the drugs stopped working? Has the Crohn's spread?

I'm frustrated, sad, jealous, worried. I wonder when I'll get to ride again, to have fun again, to be active again.

I'll drink the flowers in, I'll take lots of pictures, I'll soothe my soul the best I can.

But, darn will I ever be jealous tomorrow when they're all riding hard!!

Hugs and butterflies,
~T~

[KnottedYet]

((((((((lbtc))))))))))

[smilingcat]

Dear LBTC,

You will recover and will be able to ride again. Sometimes, the wait seem so very long but our bodies do heal. Take a good care and be kind to your body. And your body will return the favor.

My body has been shattered on many occasions, I can sense the changes in the weather from any number of joints. Yet, I still am able to ride my bike. I do not take chances nor try to go the speed I once could. I simply ride the distance that my body can tolerate and each mile I ride, I cherish the experience. I soak up the sound, the view the smell and totally immerse myself in the moment. Instead of wallowing in dispair, turn it around and enjoy the precious moments on your bike. A 30 minute ride, even a 40 minutes is good long time. I'm enjoying my ride more than ever. I stop when I feel like it. I watch the surf. I watch the surfers, the dogs on the beach. The smell of clean salt air. And when I'm good and ready, I get back on my bike.

I wish you a speedy recovery.

[rocknrollgirl]

Sending hugs....I am sorry that you are not feeling well. It is REALLY hard to be in that position and not feel jealous, I know, I have been there. There was a time a few years ago when I was happy to walk around the block.

Feel better...

Ruth

[Pax]

((((LBTC))))

You're in my thoughts and I'm sending you mucho positive energy.

[cosc]

So easy for me to be whiney when I should feel grateful and thankful to be feelin fine. When you hurt time passes slowly, but the body can make a quick turnaround and I pray this happens for you.