Multi-level disc injury - frustrated rant

[OakLeaf]

I just need to vent. I had a setback over the weekend, and my (awesome) PT yesterday used the phrase "if this becomes chronic," and I'm just really frustrated over it right now.

As glad as I am that I don't have pain, it makes it difficult since numbness is harder to identify immediately. I'm rarely sure when I've done something to aggravate it. Plus, it doesn't necessarily respond immediately, either.

I'm frightened that it will progress, both by getting worse and by getting into the motor nerves. I've got some very slight weakness in my right hand. I'm really not sure about leg weakness, the PT didn't identify any on muscle testing, but at times my balance seems to be off.

I'm frightened that I'll wind up like my dad with his multiple failed back surgeries. (I think I would have to be on the point of paralysis before I'd even consider surgery, given his experience.)

I miss my bike. I miss my riding buddies. I'm afraid that I won't be able to travel since an hour in the car is pretty much my limit. Running short distances is actually good for it, but I haven't tried to carry water for longer distances, and I'm afraid of trying that, too. Plus I still really prefer to run alone - and if I wanted to run with people I'd have to drive to do that, too, which is problematic - so running really can't substitute for biking as a social activity for me.

It really seemed like everything was getting better, and now I've had this setback and I'm not even sure why (though we have a couple of theories - short flat easy bike ride (okay during, some flare about 8 hours later), then a car trip the next day to somewhere just 10 minutes farther away than the PT clinic, and it was the day AFTER that, that everything was really bad).

It's been almost three months since my neck injury and about five weeks since the back really flared (there was some very slight diminished sensation in the L5 dermatome before that).

Mainly I'm just venting, but if anyone has some words of encouragement I'd love to hear them...

[indysteel]

((((Oak)))). I'm really sorry to read this. While I don't know much about back or neck problems, I wanted to send some healing vibes your way. I hope your PT can get you some relief soon. I know how frustrated I've been over my own injuries and illnesses these last couple of years, so I really feel for you. Hang in there.

[Veronica]

That's just stinky!

You can socialize with us. But that's really not quite the same is it. Maybe be a rest stop for your riding buddies?

I hope it gets better soon.

Veronica

[Catrin]

(((Oakleaf))) I hear your frustration, and well remember what it felt like! It sounds like our situations were similar...

I don't know if this will help, but I remember well that about 3 months into my whiplash recover I was very depressed because I couldn't see how things could improve - and all of the things I loved to do caused problems. It took 8 months but I am back to my usual activities - and just returned to mountain biking. I never dreamed it would take this long, but it finally came.

Hang in there, it is hard to deal with a lingering injury and neck stuff appears to be prone to that. My neck still isn't 100%, and I don't expect it ever will be. If I overdo things then I still get a bit of inflammation in my neck where the whiplash was the worse but I know the signs and back off so it doesn't progress.

I hope this helps at least a little. Sending you hugs and good healing vibes. Do you think it might help to see another PT or specialist?

I love Veronica's idea about being a rest stop for riding buddies

[maillotpois]

I'm so sorry.

When I had to be off the bike for 6 months for a medical issue, I actually found that being on the forum, hearing about people cycling, etc., made me feel worse. So, for me, the idea of hosting a rest stop would not have been a positive thing. But that's me. Only you know what will work for you.

Have you exhausted options with medical professionals? In other words, have you gotten second, third, fourth opinions? I know you say your PT is awesome, but maybe just consulting with someone else, or a different orthopedist, might be helpful?

[jessmarimba]

I'm so sorry

Backs are so weird like that. Your recent setback may not have even been caused by anything you can pinpoint. I know some mornings I just wake up and it's a "hurt" day, unrelated to anything. I feel very lucky I've found the pilates/massage/therapist woman that I work with because some days I'm convinced she knows my back better than I do.

Just thought I'd mention, having a hammock (with no spreader bar, hung tightly enough that I can lay level across it) has really, really helped in relieving pressure for me. To the point that I rave about it all the time so I apologize if I've brought it up too often here Since you're supported evenly with no pressure points it seems to release nerves and muscles that get aggravated by my normal posture.

Also sort of random, but you may want to think about things you carry on a normal basis. I don't even carry a purse most of the time any more because even that slight imbalance seemed to have exaggerated effects.

Hope you're doing better soon! *careful hugs*

[OakLeaf]

Thanks all. I'm feeling a little better emotionally right now ... I can't forget to be thankful that at least I can run. It would be really bad news if I couldn't do any cardio at all. For DH as much as for me - that just makes me mean.

I've read that discs can take six months to heal. It's probably normal that progress isn't linear - maybe -

[Crankin]

I hope you are feeling better, Oak. I've had minor back issues, so I can only imagine what you feel like. On the other hand, I did not deal well with not being able to ride for other reasons, so I hope you can concentrate on your rehab and eventually return to riding. I second the advice to get another opinion.