So DH and I had been training the last 5 months for a 50 mile bike race this morning. We hired babysitters so we could train. We also made babysitting arrangements so that we could take a long weekend and travel to the race without the kids, a nice getaway for us.

DS got sick early this week and we ended up spending the entire week at the hospital. I felt so bad for DS. It was hard seeing a 15 month old tied up to an IV. Anyways, he came home Thursday afternoon and is doing very well.

As guilty as it makes me feel, I am still disappointed about not being able to race this morning.

I can't tell you how many races/events we've had to bail on because of the kids. And of course, I don't mind and I don't blame them. It's just part of being a parent.

But it makes it really hard to get motivated to mountain bike. Riding for the "fun of it" doesn't do it for me. The FUN is the racing and training! I can't help it, I'm competitive.

I have another race scheduled in November. We've signed up for this race 2 times before and missed it both times because of family stuff. DH and I were trying to rally ourselves last night. Then we got some bad news this morning, the local mountain bike trail is closing to the public It's going to make it very hard for us to get out and train.

I feel like the universe is conspiring against us.