A Ride without Tears

[hirakukibou]

So I have started riding again -- after the long winter and after a time when riding the bicycle just brought grief and tears. Sunday I rode with a close friend and had a few fleeting moments when I didn't feel like crying and actually felt connected in a good way with my bike and with riding again. It was a small but significant victory. But I felt hopeful that I will be able to enjoy riding again after the homicide of my ex-husband, best friend and father of my daughter. I am also motivated by the knowledge that he would be so furious at me if I stopped riding because of his death. I can hear his voice in my head. So, I get on the bike and ride -- sometimes through the tears and occasionally without. I am hoping that spring will bring more ease.

[OakLeaf]

(((((Hira)))))

I'm glad you're healing and that you're finding some pleasure in cycling again. Take good care.

[indysteel]

(((Hira))). I'm so sorry for your pain. I, too, hope that it continues to ease. Hugs to you and your daughter.

[Owlie]

(((Hirakukibou)))

[SheFly]

Take the small victory. Soon, the riding will come without any tears. Glad you got to this point, and KNOW that it will get better for you.

SheFly

[TigerMom]

Wow. I don't know what to say except that I am glad that cycling might help relieve some of your emotional pain

[Jordyne]

It keeps a strong woman to keep on doing what you're doing. You should be proud of yourself. Sending prayers of continued healing

[Anelia]

Big hugs! Keep riding. The tears will always be somewhere there but don't let grief out. You are a strong woman!

[Catrin]

((((Hira)))) Keep riding, you are indeed a very strong woman. Sending warm thoughts and healing prayers.

[shootingstar]

He would have wanted you to be healthy...so ride at your pace. Warm wishes, hira.

[runningteach]

Sending you a hug. I hope that each ride brings you closer to a better place. Grief can shake you for a very long time.

[hirakukibou]

Thanks everyone for your warm and supportive responses. I am hopeful that as the seasons change that my heart will grow a bit lighter.

[DocZan89]

Spring is symbolic of new growth and beginnings. I hope that it will truly help you begin again but always hold onto to the pleasant times of the past. Peace to you.

Rosanna

[Bike Writer]

"To every season there is a time..." I hope for you that as this seasonal change is taking place, a change will occur in your heart as well.