I can totally relate to this topic.
To say that I was a "control freak" is an understatement. I was an
over the top control freak my whole life.
Notice that I wrote the above sentences in the past tense. That's because I have good news to share.
I am 54 years old. Approximately 10 years ago, I finally realized that I was
miserable and my control problems were ruining my life.
So at age 44, I decided to go into therapy. No doubt about it, counseling was hard. But it was soooo worth it! I finally broke through some very painful childhood barriers and was finally able to give up my control issues. I now look back at all that hard work and say, "What took me so long to start counseling?" I wish I had done it sooner in my life.
So my advice to you is to consider counseling. I was not able to do it alone - I needed professional help. And asking for help is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of strength.
I hope I am not offending you with my post. This is just what worked for me. I am
finally happy!
Lynette