If it's any help at all, it took me something like 9 months to ride on the road again after my father was killed in a car accident. I definitely think I experienced "traumatic grief" -- it was quite protracted and very intense.

I actually didn't seek counseling, though I probably should have. I read a lot about grief and just tried to be kind to myself and not force myself to do things I didn't want to do. I became somewhat of a hermit for quite some time.

Eventually time did help more than anything else. Once I got back on the bike, I did just fine. Four months isn't that far out -- I was still pretty much a mess four months after losing my dad. Be kind to yourself and give yourself the gift of time to deal with this tragic loss.

*hugs*