oakleaf, Actually I have an i pod full of books on tape and music which is pretty much my constant companion in medical offices and you are absolutely right, it does drown out the voices talking about the piece of meat.

Thank you one and all for your kind comments and wheel spinning- having some longdistance friends and support alway helps and yes it is waiting passively and worrying that make it the worst. I am much more of a deal with it and move on sort of person.

It helps tremendously that you let me blather on. thanks again.