I count myself lucky that of my many strong habits, none are harmful, and that by chance I never started smoking as a teenager. My brother did, and most likely it killed him, he had a sudden heart attack and died young.
Just to say that I know very well how hard it can be to kick a habit, even more an addiction, and how much chance can play a role in who starts smoking and who doesn't. I've also seen many people with very good reasons to quit smoking who still haven't managed to do so, while others quit without much trouble, so I'm convinced that some people have much stronger addictions than others. So I certainly won't judge you! But I do wish you the best of luck finally kicking that habit out of your life, at some point.
Winter riding is much less about badassery and much more about bundle-uppery. - malkin
1995 Kona Cinder Cone commuterFrankenbike/Selle Italia SLR Lady Gel Flow
2008 white Nakamura Summit Custom mtb/Terry Falcon X
2000 Schwinn Fastback Comp road bike/Specialized Jett