Yes, I have a doc's appointment tomorrow to eliminate all scary things.

I think if that's what it is, I'm ready to have it drained myself. It's in an unfriendly spot, and it's not going away on its own.

I've tried a lot of things - new shorts help a little, chamois butter helps a little. Applying cold seems to help a little, heat does not. Long rides just bruise all the tissues around it. Not riding does not make it go away.

Thanks for sharing your experience with me. it's taken awhile for me to even talk about it, it's so weird and uh, personal.