Emotions and exercise....
Hi, Cali...
Your story got me thinking, and correlating other thoughts together.
I've been practicing Yoga on and off for several years, and read Yoga Journal very often, it's a great magazine. YJ often talks about the emotions that come up "on the mat" while doing a yoga practice. And I don't mean while meditating - I"m not that far advanced! :rolleyes: I had started to notice that there really is a sort of swell of emotion that happens while in certain poses, and the emotions are often unpredicatble. I'm usually wondering where the heck that came from!
Since I've grown to notice this during yoga, I've recently realized that the same thing happens in my kickboxing class. At some point during class I inevitably feel some strong emotion: anger, sorrow, elation....and then confusion because, again, I'm thinking "where the heck did that come from?"
As I think back on the process of learning to mountain bike, I realize now that this has gone on during rides since I started, but I just hadn't known there was an exercise / emotion connection. Early rides were often filled with frustration and anger and fear....which I naturally thought was simply my having trouble learning something new. But I am a pretty good MTBer with little fear of a lot of trail stuff, and I find myself still having some of those emotions!! Oh, yes, and I definitely feel them on the road bike, too!!
I think it's been healthy for me to see that connection, and to apply a yoga practice to dealing with the emotions that come up. That is....acknowledge the emotion, recognize that's how I feel, allow it to pass through me, and, if all else is well, continue with whatever I'm trying to do (finish that climb, make it over those rocks, finesse my way down a steep little drop, etc). And how do I tell whether what I'm feeling is my body's way of saying that maybe I can't handle this obstacle right now, or if it's just that emotional thing? Well, that is hard to describe. If the feeling is sudden and overwhelming and seems to demand my attention and not be directly related to a section I've just encountered, it's the emotional thing and I need to let it go. If I come upon a trail feature and feel uncomfortable about it, I try to compare it to what I've done before, what the risks are, how steady and strong I feel that day, and then decide whether to proceed. When I really really pay attention, the two are very different.
You see, your need to cry was not necessarily only about your current or future skills in Mountain Biking....it might have been a natural emotion that came up simply from pushing your body through a type of exercise that is very demanding of all of your faculties. It's perfectly natural! And I sure hope it doesn't stop you from trying again. I think you'll love the sport!
Big hugs,
Namaste,
~T~