Originally Posted by
marni
ditto to all this, and I also am at a loss to explain the follow up chemo therapy/endocrine therapy/tamoxifen which has definitely made a difference in my life and will continue to do so for the next four years or until I am definitely clear, but even then, the worry will remain.
Today I had a random grim thought that once I am done with the **** tamoxifen, the recurrence time is another five years so I have 10 years unless it comes back to the other breast, and then the clock starts again. What will happen after 10 years who knows? of course I could get hit by a bus tomorrow, but this kind of thought never used to trouble me.
I feel like a fraud for thinking about joining a support group since really, all things being bright and hopeful, it is all over for me, and aside from the ongoing reactions to tamoxifen, it really was no big thing but I still wish I had someone I could vent to with.
Red, as far as bug bites, yes they leave lumps and I know exactly what you went through. Continue to be vigilant but try not to be the paranoid (a thin line to tread I know).