You said everything I couldn't quite put into words:)Quote:
Originally Posted by ClockworkOrange
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You said everything I couldn't quite put into words:)Quote:
Originally Posted by ClockworkOrange
CA
Aggie, just to add my support, Maggie is so fortunate to have found you and your husband. She may have had a rough start in life, but you gave her joy and hope and love. No one could ask for anything more.
Hugs to you all.
Ah, I'm so sorry. :(
A Texas Mountain Laurel is a lovely tribute. It is my favorite tree.
because you love her! I went through something very similar about a year ago--and most of the people posting here have clearly been through some version of this, too--and it is really heart-wrenching every single time. I find it interesting that we are given constant opportunities to love beautiful beings we know from the beginning most likely won't outlive us. But we love them, anyway. And we do it again and again, and accept that our hearts will break.Quote:
I know it, DH knows it so why can't I stop crying?
My thoughts and prayers for you, Maggie, and your DH.
Amanda, we've all fallen in love with her. Give her a hug for me.
Amanda, your dog loves you & surely appreciates all that you've done for her. You're a good woman :)
((AM & DH)))
Oh crap -- I am so very sorry, Amanda! :( :( :( :(
Our Pepper (Boston Terrier we had before Paisley) had one final terrible weekend with cluster seizures, and we made an appt. to bring her to the vet on a Monday morning too (12/18/06). We knew it was going to be the end as well -- so I do know what you are going through. We were both there with her when her vet administered the euthanasia shot, and we took her home and buried her in our back yard. It was a terrible day, but it comforts me greatly to see the stone we put on her grave.
Peace to you at this worst of times...
I feel awful not having seen this thread earlier.
My heartfelt sympathies at all you and she have been through, and deep empathy.
What a special pup!
((hugs)), hang in there.
Hi Amanda,
Maggie didn't have an easy start but you were her angel for rescuing and giving her a wonderful loving home.
You have given her all the love possible and allowed her to have few extra days of happiness. It's never easy for us to let our babies go even though its most dignified way and peaceful. Yes we are all selfish in that way. to wish for another happy day together.
Each time I was with my babies as they went to sleep, I cried over it. I still cry from time to time and tears are welling up as I write this... You realized that as they go to sleep, each one gave a thankful happy smile knowing that their suffering and pain was being taken away. Not suffer anymore.
Planting a tree in her memory is such a wonderful tribute.
Eternal peace and happiness to Maggie.
Amanda, you have a big wonderful heart and I wish you well too. And its okay to cry. We all do.
Sincerely,
Smilingcat
Pooh. :(
Just wanted to add my condodlences. You guys have had quite a time of it lately with Maggie... and she sounds like she's been a little trooper through it all. She was blessed to have found such a loving home.
Planting the tree for her is a beautiful way to remember her daily.
More hugs to you all. Thanks for being such wonderful parents to Maggie and remember all the love and joy you brought each other. And let the tears flow. It's natures way of helping us heal!
We took her in as the vet said to yesterday but she had started eating and pottying again last night. So the vet pulled blood work and her levels actually dropped from last Monday. His guess is yesterday morning's diahrea, behavior and refusal to eat was GI distress from all she is struggling with. He did caution she is still in severe kidney failure and most dogs can't function even at her lowered levels. The protein levels are dropping which means other organs are getting stressed. Her heart is showing signs of stress (heart mumur) but he couldn't say it was her time so he sent her home with the gloomy caution of "you may have a week".
She is getting weaker but ate this morning. I wish I could say the same for myself. My stomach is in knots from this roller coaster and DH's is really upset which is never good. So we keep waiting and wondering. We will do the same level of subcu and feeding her until she tells us something changed. Could be tomorrow, could be next week.
I woke up this morning finally at peace. I am thankful for one more day but fatigued too. I talked to my mom and told her I feel like I am saying I want to put her to sleep which isn't the case (she knows because yesterday she got the sobbing call) but I am just tired and wish it were easier. I can tell Maggie is getting weaker, walking and eating a bit slower so I will cherish this evening, hold her and be thankful we got it together. I think for my sanity I should quit guessing how she is feeling.
I want to give you a hug. :) Enjoy the time you have with her. Be in the moment.
Veronica