A Ride without Tears

So I have started riding again -- after the long winter and after a time when riding the bicycle just brought grief and tears. Sunday I rode with a close friend and had a few fleeting moments when I didn't feel like crying and actually felt connected in a good way with my bike and with riding again. It was a small but significant victory. But I felt hopeful that I will be able to enjoy riding again after the homicide of my ex-husband, best friend and father of my daughter. I am also motivated by the knowledge that he would be so furious at me if I stopped riding because of his death. I can hear his voice in my head. So, I get on the bike and ride -- sometimes through the tears and occasionally without. I am hoping that spring will bring more ease.

(((((Hira)))))

I'm glad you're healing and that you're finding some pleasure in cycling again. Take good care.

(((Hira))). I'm so sorry for your pain. I, too, hope that it continues to ease. Hugs to you and your daughter.

(((Hirakukibou)))

Take the small victory. Soon, the riding will come without any tears. Glad you got to this point, and KNOW that it will get better for you.

SheFly

Wow. I don't know what to say except that I am glad that cycling might help relieve some of your emotional pain

It keeps a strong woman to keep on doing what you're doing. You should be proud of yourself. Sending prayers of continued healing

Big hugs! Keep riding. The tears will always be somewhere there but don't let grief out. You are a strong woman!

((((Hira)))) Keep riding, you are indeed a very strong woman. Sending warm thoughts and healing prayers.

He would have wanted you to be healthy...so ride at your pace. Warm wishes, hira.

Sending you a hug. I hope that each ride brings you closer to a better place. Grief can shake you for a very long time.

Thanks everyone for your warm and supportive responses. I am hopeful that as the seasons change that my heart will grow a bit lighter.

Spring is symbolic of new growth and beginnings. I hope that it will truly help you begin again but always hold onto to the pleasant times of the past. Peace to you.

Rosanna

"To every season there is a time..." I hope for you that as this seasonal change is taking place, a change will occur in your heart as well.