Epiphany - I don't have to ride
long rides. This is news to me. I just went clipless and I've been riding in my old hometown getting used to them. Riding slower than before I got the new pedals but I'm sure thats because I'm so paranoid. But so far only one time that I got super nervous. Though I do fear speed more than before.
Anyway - as I was doing my regular route, which is a very slow ride - 13 miles in 50 minutes - I was enjoying the scenery and my bike and it dawned on me ... I don't have to find a group to ride with, I don't have to do another century, or a metric, or a 50 miler. I can just be happy and enjoy riding this way.
I know this is silly - but training for that Century and having a BF who is a super cyclist, and pressure from others asking about when my next long ride is was making me feel like I had to keep going on a level that maybe I'm not interested in.
Just thinking out loud - nice to realize I can still totally love riding, love my bike, love the sport without having to be so intense about it. :D