I apologize in advance because this may be a long and rambling post and I'm not sure I have a goal other than to vent. Naturally, any insights/advice/encouragement are welcome. :)
#1. Asthma (most likely sport induced). When I had to drop out of last year's Foxy's Fall Century due to breathing issues, I began a long series of doctor's visits. My pulmonary function showed improvement after albuterol, but that may have been offset by my 107% average lung capacity. My cardio stress test came back normal. Chest x-rays normal. Flowmeter (?-that little tube you blow into) not alarmingly below normal. Visit to allergist in March was the most recent. She is sure I have asthma based on the pulmonary volume (vs percentage) improvement after albuterol. The albuterol gives me nasty side effects (increased heart rate and shakiness), so I have only used it a dozen times since it was prescribed in November. Allergist switches me from fluticasone nasal spray to Astepro and from albuterol to Xenopex inhaler. The blood serum sensitivity test shows I have NO allergy sensitivities, despite increasingly worse nasal/respiratory symptoms since I moved to Sacramento. I now religiously take my shots of Xenopex before every ride and use the Astepro in spite of my non-allergies and have been mostly symptom-free since the change. Mind you, there are no generics for either of the new meds and the Astepro is $25/refill and the Xenopex $35. :eek:
#2. Weight gain. I was doing pretty well last summer/fall until my breathing went to hell. I pretty much didn't ride all winter and made half-hearted attempts to start back up. I finally decided to face the music and weighed in in February and discovered to my horror I gained back 30lbs that I'd lost over the last year. I am now (gulp) 215lbs and that's down after gaining 5lbs after making a concerted effort to ride consistently in March. Seriously, who did I piss off in a former life? I didn't regulate my diet that much, figuring the biking would burn it off. Or I would just gain 5lbs. Now I'm trying to consciously watch what I eat, adding more protein and a bit less carbs, fruits & veggies and no processed sugar. That's when I finally saw my weight start to dip. In the meantime, I figure being seen in public in my biking clothes is the price I pay for letting my weight get back up.
#3. Training/getting back up to speed. I HATE riding the trainer, so I've used the weather as my most cosistent excuse not to ride. We're having a rare spring in Sacramento rather than the usual 2 weeks of nice weather and then bam! summer. So, we get 2-3 days of nice weather then 2 days of so-so weather then 2-3 days of rain. Supposedly, I am doing my yoga DVD workout on my non-riding days, but I can't get motivated to do that either. On the advice of my riding/dating partner/coach, I am trying to do the bulk of my rides at 70% of my max heart rate, which due to my crappy lungs and overall lack of conditioning, puts me at a pathetic 11-13mph on the trail. I'm slow, I get it.
Most days I know I need to tackle exercise/dieting one step at a time and not get hung up on what I want to happen or what I screwed up in the past, but some days I just want to throw in the towel and give up. It's much nicer to stay curled up in bed with the cats!

