Originally Posted by
WindingRoad
Thank you for your advice:
So at least if I put it on the line I've made my best effort and eventually I will get strong enough to bridge this gap. I'm glad to know I didn't made a huge mistake in not falling back. Honestly it's hard for me not to chase a group when they take off. Being behind this wreck was gut wrenching because I really wanted to catch them but was stuck on this stupid hill in large gear avoiding body parts and bikes.
On a random note:
I wonder if you or anyone else who races notices that while in normal everyday life they are relatively laid back and passive (me) but when it comes to racing a primal part comes out? It's a strange dynamic and I only notice the competitive part of me lashing out while racing. It kinda freaks me out though because I find myself planning, devising and tactically assessing people in the race. That is so NOT my personality. Is this normal or am I just going into some kind of adrenaline buzz. It's basically once the race starts and is in full swing I have a personality change. What's really odd is at the beginning before we take off I feel fearful (worry about wrecks and stuff like that) but once its off its almost like I'm mad or something?!?! I don't know what the deal is? Just something I've been noticing about myself as a new racer.