Thinking of pulling out of IMAZ...sigh...
After once again not being able to "git er done" when it comes to my long ride, I think it may be time to pull the plug on IMAZ version 3.0...
I've been about killing myself trying to get my training in, but it's just not happening.
I had planned on doing a 100 miler today, but I only managed 50. Not exactly what I needed being less than 5 weeks out from race day.
It was a bit windy out where I was riding and I just hit a wall. I developed a headache with about 30 miles on, and I just crumbled from there. I think I was dehydrated.
I was able to run fine off the bike, but I have to face facts.
There's no faking an Ironman. You either did the training or you didn't. And at this point, I haven't.
I'm going to give it one more shot next weekend, but if I'm not able to pull it together then I'm going to pull the plug.
The shop has been crazy busy-which is a good thing, and I need to focus on that right now. Ironman will always be there. The shop is our livelyhood.
Sigh.... but it will be VERY HARD not to race this year. Esp. after my heartbreaking dnf last year.
But facts are facts. Here is where I'm at...
Swim: I'm fine. Those I have been getting in, so I know I can do the swim.Slow as it is, I know I can do it in 2 hours like usual.
Bike: longest ride so far 90 miles, and I haven't felt nearly as strong on the bike as I did last year.
Run: longest run has been 2.5 hours. I usually run 3 hour runs once a week.
Bricks: I usually do big bricks off my long rides, those haven't been happening. They have been mostly 80/6 or shorter.
So yeah, not very good.... sigh.... I guess we'll see how this week goes...
ugh...
Oh- and a side note... I should have known my ride was going to be bad today. Two miles in I was riding up a hill. There was a car coming down the hill towards me. A squirrel ran into the center divide and when he saw me got spooked and ran the opposite direction, right into the path of the car. And yeah, he was squished...:(
When I rode back him on my way home I apologized to the poor little guy..:(
This is EXACTLY what I needed!
I think Wahine nailed it on the head...
Last year I spent MONTHS after the grand IM DNF wondering "what if". And you know what? You are all RIGHT!!
If I don't at least attempt the race then I WILL regret it. I know myself. I'll beat myself up for MONTHS over it just like last year.
You know I was talking to a couple of my good customers today, and they all told me just to go TRY (heh heh get it.. TRI... TRY) to do it.
Our new mechanic even volunterred to ride with me to get that 100 mile monkey off my back.
Actually he told running hubby to go drive me out a hundred miles from home and drop me and valentina off! heh heh heh :p
So I think I know what I'll do. I will keep plugging along, and take all the pressure off myself. That bike course is easy peasy. It's just the distance that's daunting. But my legs have done the distance before. They know what to do. So I'm going to go for it. And whatever happens- happens.
I'm confident that if I'm off the bike by 4:30 I can make it even if I have to walk. I'll be another "last minute finisher" but I can make it.
I really DO need to get that dang DNF monkey off my back.
So now lets just pray that the wind stays away this year. 2006 was nice. Some said it was windy, but it wasn't anything I'm not used to. Phoenix ALWAYS seems windy in spring.
Well, off to bed. THANKS FOR THE BUTT KICK!!!!! I needed it!
the reason why I log these things...
Ok, so I just went back and browsed at last years training logs that I posted here.
Seems a few things stand out. I ALWAYS bonk at 50 miles, but if I give it a minute I can push through it. So I guess I just didn't give it enough time today.
Also, I didn't train any harder last year than I am this year, except in the long ride/brick dept.
So heck, maybe I WILL surprise myself??
Who knows??