Roadtrip
10-28-2010, 07:36 PM
Ok. In short it's been some time since I've been happy in my job. Yes, the economy has been rough on everyone. At least I have a job, but I am really tired, fustrated and exhausted.
About a six months after I was hired the CEO was essentially fired and a huge shakeup of uppper managment happened. They fired about 80 employees and they split the department and hired a new VP to run the technical side of our business. Many of the developers and middle mgnt on staff didn't mesh with the new VP and left the company within six months, which dessimanted the department. Myself and one other dev were left of a staff of about eight-- I took on MUCH more work and responsibility-- but salary freeze basically meant I went two years without a raise.
New director of development was hired and started to rebuild and I felt like I was valued and had a chance to learn and grow with new team. VP was fired after a cluster-f%@& of a year where a website that was supposed to make the company $$$$ and ended up a huge failure.
CEO brought in "his" guy as VP who began making changes and slowly cutting director out of decision making and moving in different direction from a technical standpoint-- away from the skill set of the majority of the staff. Director resigned and within six months the team was dessemated again.
VP and new director are located in another state, two time zones away, so there is a huge lack in "team work" and any potential of training or advancement of career seems like a pipe dream. I'm the only developer left in my office. Not exactly feeling appreciated or very fulfilled right now. I keep plugging away and doing my job.
I've been looking for another job opportunity pretty hard for the last six months or so and had several interviews. Most recently I've interviewed three times with a small company and was asked to take this "interesting" personality assessment, finally was asked to take a technical exam today. I was nervous and the tech is not what I'm used to using, but have some exposure to, plus I was totally honest about my skills. Test went horrible and I feel like after all this I blew this chance after all I've done. I just cant help but feel demoralized and a failure.
Sorry this is such a long rant. It's been two years plus in the making and seeing everyone around me finding new and better opportunities just has me feeling pretty depressed.
I'm doing what I can and changing the things in my life that I can change, like climbing on the bike for the first time, making that personal commitment to myself. I just wish the job situation would look up.
Shannon
About a six months after I was hired the CEO was essentially fired and a huge shakeup of uppper managment happened. They fired about 80 employees and they split the department and hired a new VP to run the technical side of our business. Many of the developers and middle mgnt on staff didn't mesh with the new VP and left the company within six months, which dessimanted the department. Myself and one other dev were left of a staff of about eight-- I took on MUCH more work and responsibility-- but salary freeze basically meant I went two years without a raise.
New director of development was hired and started to rebuild and I felt like I was valued and had a chance to learn and grow with new team. VP was fired after a cluster-f%@& of a year where a website that was supposed to make the company $$$$ and ended up a huge failure.
CEO brought in "his" guy as VP who began making changes and slowly cutting director out of decision making and moving in different direction from a technical standpoint-- away from the skill set of the majority of the staff. Director resigned and within six months the team was dessemated again.
VP and new director are located in another state, two time zones away, so there is a huge lack in "team work" and any potential of training or advancement of career seems like a pipe dream. I'm the only developer left in my office. Not exactly feeling appreciated or very fulfilled right now. I keep plugging away and doing my job.
I've been looking for another job opportunity pretty hard for the last six months or so and had several interviews. Most recently I've interviewed three times with a small company and was asked to take this "interesting" personality assessment, finally was asked to take a technical exam today. I was nervous and the tech is not what I'm used to using, but have some exposure to, plus I was totally honest about my skills. Test went horrible and I feel like after all this I blew this chance after all I've done. I just cant help but feel demoralized and a failure.
Sorry this is such a long rant. It's been two years plus in the making and seeing everyone around me finding new and better opportunities just has me feeling pretty depressed.
I'm doing what I can and changing the things in my life that I can change, like climbing on the bike for the first time, making that personal commitment to myself. I just wish the job situation would look up.
Shannon