Would you like to join my pity party?

[makbike]

All I can say is I'll be glad when this week is over and I can close the book on it. Since Sunday things have been bad and just seem to get worse with each passing day.

Sunday: My BF hurts my feelings and now won't talk to me.

Monday morning: On the way to work I spy an animal in the road flopping around and I immediately know it has been hit by a car. I pull over to help it. I discover a little yorkie and immediately know it is not going to make it. Gums are pale and heart rate is fading. I move the dog off the road and another man runs to the only house on this section of the road to inquire if this is their dog. A man emerges from the house and claims the dog. I explain the situation and advise him to get the dog to the closest clinic ASAP but also advise him the situation is grim. He is in tears and wants to know if I'm a vet. I explain I'm not but worked in a clinic as an assistant for nine years. Again I advise him to move quickly. At this point I know the dog has passed. What an awful way to start my day.

Monday night: BF still won't talk to me.

Tuesday: We are administering our state tests at school this week. I've given this exam for the past 17 years without any problems. I'm on the move around the classroom checking test booklets, making sure kids on the correct section, etc. I again check booklets when they finish (checking for stray marks, making sure they have completed the assigned sections, etc.). Kids return after lunch and I administer the third section. Again, I'm up and about checking booklets. A young man in class finishes and I check his booklet and notice he has not bubbled in any answers for the multiple choice questions that afternoon. I ask him why and he explains he bubbled in the other booklet (it contains only the questions and though they are allowed to write in this booklet it is not scored). I ask him to go back and transfer his answers for that afternoon and he informs me he did the same thing in the morning. They are not allowed to go back on previous sections so he will take zeros on all those questions. He is a strong student and would have scored well on this section of the exam. I feel awful! How could I miss that he did not bubble in any answers during the morning section? My boss was very nice about it but I also realize I've hurt the school's score for next year. I was sick to my stomach all day.

Tuesday evening: decide I should ride so I drive to Louisville to join in the club ride (25 miler). Skies are clear. Forecast indicates there are storms to the south but they should miss the Louisville area. Join the ride and feel great on my bike. Reach downtown and look to the south skies are black. I decide to keep riding reminding myself what the weatherman said. I fall into a paceline and we are zipping down River Road. We turn to climb the first big hill and hit a head wind. At this time the skies open up and well the rest is history.

BF still will not talk.

Wednesday: I don't even want to think about it. I'm almost afraid to get out of bed in the tomorrow morning. Gosh I hope it is a better day!

Thanks for listening and I hope your week has been better than mine.

[BleeckerSt_Girl]

Call BF and tell him you are miserable, you miss him, and can you both just start over again and maybe talk later on about what happened? Ask him how he is before you tell him how you are.

[wannaduacentury]

All I can say is I'll be glad when this week is over and I can close the book on it. Since Sunday things have been bad and just seem to get worse with each passing day.

Sunday: My BF hurts my feelings and now won't talk to me.

Monday morning: On the way to work I spy an animal in the road flopping around and I immediately know it has been hit by a car. I pull over to help it. I discover a little yorkie and immediately know it is not going to make it. Gums are pale and heart rate is fading. I move the dog off the road and another man runs to the only house on this section of the road to inquire if this is their dog. A man emerges from the house and claims the dog. I explain the situation and advise him to get the dog to the closest clinic ASAP but also advise him the situation is grim. He is in tears and wants to know if I'm a vet. I explain I'm not but worked in a clinic as an assistant for nine years. Again I advise him to move quickly. At this point I know the dog has passed. What an awful way to start my day.

Monday night: BF still won't talk to me.

Tuesday: We are administering our state tests at school this week. I've given this exam for the past 17 years without any problems. I'm on the move around the classroom checking test booklets, making sure kids on the correct section, etc. I again check booklets when they finish (checking for stray marks, making sure they have completed the assigned sections, etc.). Kids return after lunch and I administer the third section. Again, I'm up and about checking booklets. A young man in class finishes and I check his booklet and notice he has not bubbled in any answers for the multiple choice questions that afternoon. I ask him why and he explains he bubbled in the other booklet (it contains only the questions and though they are allowed to write in this booklet it is not scored). I ask him to go back and transfer his answers for that afternoon and he informs me he did the same thing in the morning. They are not allowed to go back on previous sections so he will take zeros on all those questions. He is a strong student and would have scored well on this section of the exam. I feel awful! How could I miss that he did not bubble in any answers during the morning section? My boss was very nice about it but I also realize I've hurt the school's score for next year. I was sick to my stomach all day.

Tuesday evening: decide I should ride so I drive to Louisville to join in the club ride (25 miler). Skies are clear. Forecast indicates there are storms to the south but they should miss the Louisville area. Join the ride and feel great on my bike. Reach downtown and look to the south skies are black. I decide to keep riding reminding myself what the weatherman said. I fall into a paceline and we are zipping down River Road. We turn to climb the first big hill and hit a head wind. At this time the skies open up and well the rest is history.

BF still will not talk.

Wednesday: I don't even want to think about it. I'm almost afraid to get out of bed in the tomorrow morning. Gosh I hope it is a better day!

Thanks for listening and I hope your week has been better than mine.


{{{{HUGS}}}} to you. I hope things look better soon. Jenn

[mountainchick]

I hope your week gets better and you work things out with BF.

Can you treat yourself to something (pedicure, chocolate, new cycling gear) to help brighten the week?

[LBTC]

{{{{{{{{{{{{Marcie}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Your week will get better.

As a pet parent, I know that my gratitude for what you did for the yorkie and his owner is beyond words. Terribly difficult for you, and awful for him, but the ripple of your kindness and knowledge has helped him in ways you may never know.

Strange as it sounds, your strong student made the error, that you overlooked, for a reason. I can't explain it, but you can't tell just what it will lead to for him, for you, for your school, etc. Many wild scenarios come to mind, which don't bear typing....just please trust the universe.

Can I explain why you got rained on wickedly? No. Am I grateful it wasn't a tornado you rode through? Absolutely!

BF will warm up. Lisa has good thoughts for you. Maybe this week is more about you taking care of you (with the help of your mates on TE), than whatever BF has to offer right now.

Life is a strange roll of the dice, but the numbers always add up to something.

Sending you butterflies full of joy, acceptance, peace and wonder.

and hugs, too

~T~

[makbike]

Thanks for the hugs guys!

I've tried calling BF, he is screening his calls. I've tried sending emails they go unanswered. I simply must wait for him to contact me and I'm not very good at waiting.

I did treat myself to an hour massage last night and the knots have already returned to my neck and shoulders.

I know things will get better just as I know everything happens for a reason. I'm just a bit blue and this too shall pass (probably when the PMS trip comes to an end and the cramps pass!)

Time to curl up with my cats so they can purr me to sleep (also lacking this week).

[lauraelmore1033]

cats are a great consolation, aren't they? What an awful week! Hope things get better for you pronto!

[mimitabby]

gee, ((((Makbike)))) I'm having a hard week too but at least DH is talking to me!
I hope you have someone you can talk to about it.

I have been where you were with the Yorkie, with me it was a little orange tabby kitten. I got there just as it died too.

I'm glad you have your cats. Aren't they grand sometimes?

[Mr. Bloom]

While we're "pulling for you" in cyber-land, please take note of the next five GOOD things that happen and post them here for us. That way, we'll know this brief spell has passes.

[uforgot]

Well, from someone who just gave Missouri's MAP tests, how ridiculous is it that your tests aren't clear enough for a good student? Seems like you should make a complaint about that. Sounds like a huge flaw to me. Actually, I have yet to see one of these tests that doesn't have a problem or two. You certainly sounded like you proctored it fine. I'd ask around, see if this isn't a problem elsewhere in the state.

As for the BF? You said "My boyfriend hurts my feelings and now won't talk to me He hurts YOU and somehow it's YOUR fault? I know it's one sentence, and I don't have the full story, but this scares me for you. I'd go talk to someone, friend, relative and get their slant on things. Go to the library, search the web, tons of stuff on relationships and you can learn so much about yourself. This seems like a huge red flag to me. If you like, PM me and I can steer you to some books and sites.

I'll be thinking of you and hope today is better.

signed,

been there, done that, both times.

[crazycanuck]

(((((((((((makbike))))))))

You're a wonderful lady :) I'm sure if it was my doggie, she would have appreciated your kind help as well :)

I'm not exactly sure what else to offer except I do hope your week improves. I'm sure it will :)

Take care

C

[makbike]

Uforgot - thanks for the words of encouragement. Let me clarify this statement:
You said "My boyfriend hurts my feelings and now won't talk to me He does not hurt my feelings on a regular basis - he hurt my feelings on Sunday -I did not catch the typo in my post. I certainly did not mean to make him out as some bad, uncaring person for he is not. We (he and I) are both under a lot of pressure at the moment and what happened Sunday hit me hard. Life goes on, we will mend this fence I know. I know there is no perfect relationship out there, there are bumps in every relationship just as there are many smooth spots. We simply hit a little "hiccup" in the path. Things will be fine - Add to this a mild PMS trip and well little things become magnified. Again, I know things will get better. I'm still smiling just having a rough week.

Mr. S - I slept through the night and woke with a smile so there is my first good thing. Now it is off to school for yet another day of testing. I'm sure things will go better today.

Thanks again for your support guys I really do appreciate it. Help yourself to the refreshments and munchies (can't have a pity party without lots of good food and drinks).

[uforgot]

Okay, makbike! Just let me add one more thing...

http://www.dvirc.org.au/whenlove/respect.htm


Now, bring on the oreo cookies!!!!! I'm in!:D

[Bikingmomof3]

I am sorry your week has been such a trying one. *hugs*

[stacie]

Boyfriend sounds immature. My husband used to do the silent treatment thing when we were young as a way to torture me in my opinion. We've learned that dragging a fight out for days is just dumb.
I just found out that my husband accidentally deleted my presentation for a 10 hour course I am teaching on Saturday. Hopping on board the pity party. Virtually impossible to get so much material back in a professional looking presentation in just a few days. :(

[missymaya]

makbike-sometimes crap happens. I lost my job, but talked to one of my professors (who advises on city planning in a private company) and spread the word around to different places and companies what I was looking for. If I didn't lose the job, I don't know if I would have had this opportunity open up for me. The key is to sulk a little (it's ok to sit around in your comfy clothes, have some chocolate and watch a cheesy movie every once in while; it's good to ease down a bit). Then, when sulking is over, stand up and wipe the chocolate off of your face and face the day with regenerated strength and optimism and people will see that. Things will go your way, just gotta climb the mountains to get to the flat spots. In the meantime, I'm sending positive energy your way to help push this week on by to start anew. As for BF, I don't know the scenario,but if he's reasonable and cares for you, he will come to his senses and speak to you and you two should work things out.

stacie-that stinks! But, look at it this way: try to recover as much info as possible. In the meantime, if you know that most is lost, work with it and try to use that to your advantage. I think most people respect others when they not only admit when something crappy happens but work with it. In the meanwhile, Im sending positive energy to you so that your project turns out ok!

[mimitabby]

Okay, makbike! Just let me add one more thing...

http://www.dvirc.org.au/whenlove/respect.htm


Now, bring on the oreo cookies!!!!! I'm in!:D

Nice, Uforgot!

[nebiker]

I know sometimes my BF says something that upsets me, and I in turn push EVERY button he has! I don't blame him for not wanting to talk to me. Had I not responded the way I did, he wouldn't have either. We have nice calm :confused: fights too, so I know he's really a good person. But when I end the conversation with "I don't want to talk to you anymore" who can blame him for taking me seriously? I know I need help, and I'm trying really hard, but when the PMS monster comes to town, it's 100 times worse!